I am sorry for being easily influenced, for the awkwardness felt every school day and the friendship that is hurt. And I really miss the past of talking on the phone, sharing our secrets, of having so much fun. However, I don't know how to bring it back. The wall that has been built up is getting thicker and thicker as everyday passes. So thick that I have no idea how to tear it down. Or maybe it is just my pride, again. It is the latter. I am really very sorry.

I guess the reason why I can't summon enough courage to do something is because I dwell too much on what-will-happen-if-I-did-this that I start to feel insecure, and by then, my courage has been drained out.